Where have all my good friends gone??

So, lately....everywhere I look I see this....

Or even harder is this one....

No joke! Since we've been trying to get pregnant, these almost 2 & 1/2 years, both of my sisters have started trying, become pregnant & both had babies, not to mention I've had 8 of my close girlfriends have babies or get pregnant as well. It's made things quite funny to me. Hopefully all these baby vibes will rub off on me sooner rather than later.
But, the hardest part of all of this is NOT that they've gotten pregnant or had sweet babies or meeting their sweet little things & loving each one of them....It's been that ever since this has happened, with each day that passes I keep losing more & more of my close girlfriends! THAT is the part that hurts so bad... I don't know why...it hasn't been anything I've said or done or felt because I LOVE hearing about all of their pregnancy issues or funny stories, or hearing all about the exciting new things their baby is doing & all the sweet or not so sweet little growing moments!! I have LOVED that! That's probably what's keeping me sane throughout this thing because it makes me SOOO happy for them!! Plus, you better BELIEVE when it happens to us, I'm going to be annoyingly posting every little milestone on facebook & screaming it from the rooftops!!!
But, when I'm going through the hardest time in my life & feeling the most "not in control" of my life, that's when I need my girlfriends the most & for some reason they've all stopped hanging out with me or talking to me. What is it? It's nothing I've done... Maybe it's just me, but just because you're at a different place in your life than me doesn't mean I can't be there for you & listen...I'm still the same person minus the craziness these fertility drugs make me feel a couple days out of the month. But, that's not it...I had a lady move into our ward the other day & we were talking with her & she was all talking & laughing & it was great getting to know her a little & then she asked if we had kids & we told her not yet & she just said "Oh...." and just walks the other way. Serious?! haha.
    Is there a "Mommies Only" club that I'm not aware of out there??

Eating my emotions....

So, as I look at this cupcake, hmmm....this cupcake isn't a baby....what am I hoping it's gonna do for me? Dude! I don't even LIKE cake?!?! What is going on?!?! Well, that would be the fact that because I had a bad day...finding out that after my first round of clomid (a fertility drug) and lots of lovin', I did not in fact ovulate this past cycle. Well, I'm SICK of it! I'm sick of being fat! I'm sick of worrying about a baby & I'm sick of not feeling like I belong in my body! I'm tired of swollen feet from crazy hormones & I'm tired of hormones affecting my weight like it has. I'm done blaming things & I'm just ready to kick butt! So, instead of using this blog to share nice things happening to me (there's not much else going on besides work & school & pure exhaustion) I'm going to use it to tell my story of what's going on with me & vent to myself a little bit (for all posterity to read later.....great). It's time for a little therapy for myself! I have stared at my LAST cupcake full of guilt & disapointment, self blaming & iced with a little self loathing for not being able get pregnant this last 2 & 1/2 years & I am going to get skinny! Haha. So...on to my diet....Woot woot!

Yay for iPhones!!

So I just wanted to thank my dear friend Kirie for letting us all know that Blogger has an iPhone app now!!! Sweet! Seeing as how I'm always on my phone & never at home anymore maybe I'll be better at posting!!

Just a quick update on us...Adam is graduated (since last December 2010) & after several short-lived, not the right fit, type jobs, he's now working at the great AAA Service Company for my dad & after a little adjusting & eternal perspective, he is very happy now. I'm working for Ben at Whole Health Chiropractic & love it. And also going to school at TN Academy of Cosmetology part time at night. I totally love it. It's so fun! Plus its a great distraction! We've also been trying to have a baby for about 2 & 1/2 years & no luck so far, but we're still hopeful. Obviously, I have lots to catch everyone up on but this is just for now! We're loving life & each other & are having a blast in this stage in our life! Here are some pics to update you for now! Graduation day & me in my stylin' scrubs with my new sweet nephew, McKay!

NEW BLOG ADDRESS!!

I created a new blog for just the deals!! Here it is...check it out!! :)

http://freememphisgroceries.blogspot.com/

Surprise Mud Pies - Hilarious!

I took this a while back on my phone & it still makes me laugh everytime I watch it. Here it Goes! Let me know what you think? AFV worthy? I think so....

Crafty Attempts

So, lately, I've been embracing the role of "homemaker" meaning that I have been "making stuff at home"! haha. And I have to tell you though beforehand, that I have NEVER been an crafty person...not artistic at all (except musically artistic) & I can't draw a lick so I never thought I'd like crafts because I never thought I'd be any good at them. Well, I've really been getting into them lately. Making something I'd put in my house out of nothing has become really fun for me. Here are a few things that I've done:

For Halloween:

My Terra-cotta Pot Mummies (not yet completely finished)

My Fall practically free table centerpiece:

(it doesn't show up well here, but I painted them with spray on silver glitter specs)

I have to find a cuter bowl, but this will do for now.

My other Pine cone door stopper:

My Awesome Garage Sale Find:

(the problem was they were all ugly booger green, so I had to do lots of work)

And this is the finished product. It's hard to see with the light from the window, but I painted them all Chocolate Brown.

It has been SOOO much fun!! :)

Catching Up....

So, I KNOW this looks familiar if you keep up with my blog....

Well, here is what happened about a week & a half before we left for Mexico & a couple days after my birthday & the day after Adam's.

2 wrecks in less than a year after never having a wreck before was TOO much! We were watching Josh that week while my parents were out of town for vacation & I had taken him to Seminary that morning & then was headed over to Meggan's house to babysit so she could help Ben at work. So, I was on Trinity & had just crossed over Germantown Parkway when a car about 3 cars up flipped a U-turn when he could've waited about 15 feet til the turning lane ahead, but he didn't. So, the Monte Carlo behind him slammed on his brakes, the silver truck behind him tapped him & then slammed on his brakes & my poor little car....I was sittin' so low that I couldn't see anything over the truck. So, I slammed on my brakes & they didn't stop fast enough, so I swerved as much as I could without hitting the traffic in the other lane & slammed into to truck. The damage on the truck was about the size of a golfball from my car but mine was totaled. SOOO....long story short....after some serious adjustments on my neck & back from Whole Health Chiropractic Center & once we got back from Mexico...I determined that I do NOT want to be in a tiny car at all anymore. So....here is what we got.... Check out my New Ride!!!

A 2003 Saturn Vue - 4 door - automatic windows & locks, music...and it's a BIG car!!! 

haha. I couldn't be more happy. Not to mention we got it for $6,000 & they gave us $4000 for my car that was totaled. What an awesome blessing. So, here it is! A blessing that started out as a trial. Love this life!! haha. And LOOOOOVE my new ride!!!

BeautiControl!!

For those of you that don't know it yet, I am a BeautiControl consultant. My job consists of pampering & loving on women & doing spa's. It's a blessed life for sure. I wanted to share a little something that I don't think I've shared yet...Because of BeautiControl & all the awesome things I've gotten, the most exciting thing right now that we are preparing for is the All-expense paid trip I earned for 2 to the Riviera Maya in Mexico!!

I could not be more excited!! I've never been out of the country so I'm in the process of getting my passport & it is so awesome. AND it happens to fall the weekend of our Anniversary of 2 years which was a HUGE bonus. I feel so blessed. I never thought in a million years that we, for our 2 year anniversary would be able to go to Mexico seeing how we could NEVER be able to afford it ourselves. So, obviously, you won't be surprised that I didn't have a grasp on what "all-expense paid" meant when I called the main office to ask about my plane ticket & they said "Lindsay, that's what all-expense paid trip for 2 means. We pay for your meals, your airfare, your suite, your activities & even give you spending money & matching luggage."

WOW! I was shocked. haha. So, here's a little info on our trip that is coming up quickly...

This is our suite that we are staying in that is over 1000 sq ft. which is bigger than our first apartment. haha. It's going to be incredible. But, I need your help...We get to choose between a bunch of activities & we're trying to decide. What do you think? Here are our choices...

Golfing with the President

The Tour of the Ancient Mayan Ruins

Xel-ha - A Huge Waterpark

A Tour through the Caverns

Ziplining above the jungle

What do you think? Let me know your choice & why so we can decide!

More updates soon! :)

Calling All Readers!!

So, this is just a post to see who all is out there... I comment on blogs when I read them because I want the authors to know that they are being enjoyed & read, but besides my sisters & occasional friend...I have NO idea who else is reading. So, here's another scrapbook page...let me know what you think & if you are reading this...send me a quick shout out just so I know someone is listening! haha. Love y'all!

So You Think You Can Digital Scrapbook?!

Well, I'm trying so that's all I'll say. Here are a couple pages I've done this week. Trying to play catch up on all of our memories. I'll post some more Girl's Camp Pictures & such as soon as I get them. I've decided seeing how I'm awful at keeping a journal & at blogging regularly & at scrapbooking frequently, I'm just going to combine them all & scrapbook as soon as I can after the experience & keep a journal for that part too. I'm also getting Adam to write on the scrapbook pages when I create them. I'm excited about being able to do all my journaling with the pictures so I can check that off my "Things to feel guilty about not completing" list. haha. Love y'all & let me know what you think. I'm still new at this!!

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